1-24-00 : A long time ago - but still a part of the person I am today. Perhaps it was feelings like this that make me hold you at an arm's length these days. Knowing that the paradise you promise is an empty lie.

Shades of Grey

my head is filled with the confusion
left by the traces of feelings I have
trying desperately to remember the times
when I could clearly define how I felt

I must question myself - and
wonder perhaps if all of life
resides in a grey area - - and
that when we think we, beyond a doubt
know something
we are merely deluding ourselves

that an error of perception has occured.
I do not doubt the other hues
shade the world with colors-

but this fact is merely on faith
in my heart